Loss or Gain?

So Today I am supposed to write a short post about a loss. A personal loss, a financial one, could even be as small as loosing in a game of chess but mainly write about the experience and what I personally gained from it. The reality is that most of the times I am not even sure what it is that I will be writing about until I sit in front of the computer. My first step is choosing a title and after I have a title I start searching for an image that could match the title or the subject for that matter.

When I first sat in front of the computer I decided I would write about the different times in my twenty years of running a successful business that I actually lost money, and even add the times when I lost money in my personal life. I was sure this was a topic that would interest most readers since it can't be all good all the time. But as I searched for a perfect image that would match the post I just could not run into the right one. For some reason something made me stop and think. Maybe this is not the right subject, or maybe I just need to write and look for a photo later.

Before I continue with my actual post and what made me change my mind, let me just say that I am very much into Angels and believe that ever since I opened my mind to them they always give me signals that they are watching and make sure I am on the right track. With that said and I had to say it because a big sign with the word count said words: 222 just struck me and made me realize I had picked the right subject but I will write about that in another post at a later date. I will just mention here that 222 means faith and trust something we all need at all times.

So to get back to the story, like I said, I stopped to think let me just go on with the writing and look for a photo later. Right when I decided to do that the computer froze and started acting up on me. I actually had to wait for a couple of minutes for it to work again. The interesting part is that the minute it started working again it went back to the top of the images where I was looking, but this time it took me to the photo that you are looking at. The truth is that I have lost a lot of people in my life, very close to me. My mother, Sister, all four grandparents, a couple of cousins, an uncle and a best friend. The first thing that came to me when writing about a loss was all of them but decided I did not want to write about a sad subject. Now I find myself writing about my cousin Toto, someone who left too soon being only twenty-five years young, and with a very bright career and life ahead of him here with us the mortals.

Totico's departure, as well as all other family members, was very painful and difficult to digest at the time it happened, but over the years he has become an inspiration and even though every time someone dies you only hear good things about them in his case it is just mesmerizing. I know that I am going to get to talk about him a lot more in other posts because there are so many things in my life that I actually try to copy from him so I am going to try and keep this as short as possible in order to leave a small lesson in today's post.

Make sure you always do what you feel is right. Make sure you don't do to others what you don't want them to do to you. Make sure you think with your head but you follow your heart. Make sure to leave a print wherever you go. Make sure to make someone smile every day. Make sure that you don't hurt others for your own good in order to sleep well at night. But most of all make sure that when you are no longer around, people don't just talk good about you for a few days, make sure they remember you always and want to imitate you every day.

with that said, I am not sure if I lost more than I gained from his departure since he is with me all the time and has helped shape me into who I am.

R.I.P. Rafael Eduardo Anaya (Toto)